Lip-singing
Lip-singing. I move my lips to a voice not my own. Lip-syncing. I synchronize my lips with a song not my own. One thing I realize.. that is exactly what God wants me to do. I am so insecure at times. But, He wants His voice heard in my mouth. It is not I. It is not about me. Never will be, never was, never is. Only His voice. Only His song.
I’m lip-singing Your song God, speak through me. It is Your message. Sing through me.
Sing through me..
hehe, am I blessed or what.
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I watched Twilight with my friends last night. I hesitated to watch it because I could hear my old pastors voices yelling, “GUAARD YOOOUR MIIIIND!” Still, I watched it. Uhh, out of peer pressure.
I have to say, I do not regret.
It was unapologetically romantic. In the silver screen world alot of romance have become comedy, almost to the point of making a farce of it. Although, I do like romantic comedy. It was more than refreshing to see an alternative.
Haha, an alternative to human male species.. ahem, vampires. Haha, just kidding.
This movies has really drawn a fan club for itself. In an interview Robert Pattinson said it may have been because the story gave intimacy, people knew the characters so well, they feel a connection. Personally, I think, more for women than men.
The effect of the story on me, was that it awakened a longing. It reminded me of my need to love and be loved, without reserve. Which seemed to be the resounding theme of the movie; longing. The movie is addictive to people that way. He wants her blood but at the same time he wants to protect her. He loves her but his weaknesses limit him. She doesn’t care, she just loves him. It was the tension in that, which made it interesting. He was a vampire. He longed to have her, as a meal and for love. It’s a seductively dangerous position to be in. It was so desireable, to see this monster of a man, defeat his own strength, if only to be with her. And she was very brave.
That is the beauty and danger in its morals, I think. It awakens a longing, unmet.
See, what woman would not want to be pursued by a man willing to make a villain and a hero of himself, whatever it takes to protect her and know her. And yet, that conflict in itself, limits love.
And then, there is Jesus, who does not desire your blood. He does not desire to suck the life out of you. But to GIVE you His blood and His life. The contrary! See, as beautiful as this movie maybe, all it presents to us, is a definition of a dellima we already know fully well. Perhaps, that’s why we like it. The truth, however, of love in its fullness, is not portrayed in the movie. But in Jesus, a longing awakened can be satisfied in the delight of Him.
I feel so corny relating everything to Jesus. I guess, when you realize the value of having a second life. A movie is never just a movie. A word is never just a word. Everything brings about meaning. Something beautiful, something dangerous. Everything to rejoice in. Everything to learn from.
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Zero Gravity: Church of God, Makati
The music was loud and stirring. I savored the energy for what it was worth. Was I in a church or in a bar? Or Both? The fusion in the atmosphere was remarkable. Although, you can’t seem to take away “church” in the congregation. They needed more motivation to get on the dance floor than they probably do to get up and worship. It just didn’t seem like the natural culture for them, or for the other seminary students I was with. Still, we were with people who didn’t know Jesus like we did, so who cares about culture. It was a great time to forget “church culture.” I regret not maximizing the oppurtunity. I didn’t get to mingle as much as I’d like. Was I scared to be different? Scared not to stick to my culture, despite the purpose of the event? The most I did was get drinks for a friends’ friends. Which doesn’t say much for getting to know them.
I did enjoy the band portion. Despite my short-sighted 300 eye vision grade, I found a new band I like. Honestly never heard about them till last night. I am such a media outcast. But for the love of rock music, darn their good. Salamin is probably the next band I’ve fallen in love with since Flyleaf. So, I will be cheering them on, literally, and with prayers. It also inspired me to work on my craft. To somehow, be good at what I do also, for the glory of God.
So far, that would be singing “Gabi’ng Payapa” for our christmas musical play. And yes, I need all the “cheer” I can get for it because I’ve never done this before.